realized

by | Mar 18, 2023 | a thought

Upon arrival I realized why I’ve wanted to come here so badly most of my life. Everyone avoids me. I only talk to people when I initiate it. I’m effectively invisible most of the time. It’s a sublime type of loneliness I’ve never experienced before. After the years of...

chained liturgy

by | Feb 10, 2023 | a thought

Religion is the most effective, self-inflicted trauma a person can choose if they want to change. In both my zealotry and my apathy, I am cruel to others. Unfortunately, it is an ordeal for me to strike a balance between the...

another february second

by | Feb 2, 2023 | rambling

I do have moments of sublime contented clarity. Instances where the green in the trees and the blue in the sky are enough. I smile more often than I let...

january dreams

by | Jan 27, 2023 | a dream

I keep having dreams about getting lost in Tokyo. They’re the loveliest dreams I’ve had in a...