sonnet twenty-three

by | Oct 20, 2023 | rambling

I inflicted familiar pain today. My youth’s ache, something loathed, a constant strife. Though now it’s gone and joy has found its way, I am left with loneliness, a strange life. The cold endured, an old relentless song, Until I prepared to break the...

october 1

by | Oct 1, 2023 | rambling

I look forward to this time of the year the least. It is when both the best and worst memories I have coincide. Every other day I’m remembering. Today I said I was tired of always being left behind. Then I laughed for...

a question 9/20/23

by | Sep 20, 2023 | a question

i can’t go again. not because i can’t handle being there, but because i can’t endure coming back. i have withstood much. the presence of demons, the attacks of devils, communion with angels and even being utterly cut off from the very Silence i worship. the weight of...

a dream 9/19/23

by | Sep 19, 2023 | a dream

I hadn’t been lost in blue like that in a long time. She mimicked the sky the way she locked eyes. I don’t know who reached for whose hand first, but holding hers felt natural and practiced. I knew the shape, the size, the creases. The first time felt like the...