I inflicted familiar pain today.
My youth’s ache, something loathed, a constant strife.
Though now it’s gone and joy has found its way,
I am left with loneliness, a strange life.
The cold endured, an old relentless song,
Until I prepared to break the refrain.
To set me free from what I knew so long,
But in that moment it was all in vain.
A paradox it seems, this twist of fate.
To break my chains, but have them rust away.
I was resolved to step towards the gate,
Instead released where my shadows hold sway.
Seeking liberation, my flesh did burn.
Now here I stand alone, my soul’s concern.