You don’t need to find yourself. You never lost yourself. Just be honest. You don’t know what you want. You know it’s not the person you’re with. You know it’s not the place you are.
You are still who you are. Everywhere you are. Whoever you are with. Through the horrid things you do. Despite the wonderful things you accomplish. All those things are you.
In the end, just like in those moments of doubt, no matter what lies you told yourself and others, you are.